How long are you willing to wait?

Whewww chilleee! That title is a little heavy, isn’t it? A lot of us get caught up in the waiting season. We tend to focus moreso on the timing of the waiting season and the desire for the change and improvement to occur. We focus on those things so much that we miss God’s purpose for the waiting season. God simply doesn’t have you waiting for no reason at all. Either you are not properly aligned and God is waiting on you to get into the correct position and/or God is simply going before you making the crooked paths straight. Either way, you should not be anxious. Instead, you should be becoming who God created you to be in preparation for your next season. Let’s Talk! 💗

Let’s Talk about my waiting season prior to becoming a Nurse Practitioner (NP). After passing my licensure examination, I spent the next several months submitting applications. Out of all of the applications I submitted, only one company called me back for an interview. I interviewed for the position and declined it as the liability was too great. At the time I was working as a contract Registered Nurse (RN). I eventually ended my contract and accepted a position as a RN Case Manager (RNCM) locally. The salary for the RNCM position was lower than the contract position, but I needed to be closer to home to support my oldest son as it was his senior year of high school. Shortly after the job transition, I began reading Me Ra Koh’s book titled 4 Minutes to Hear God’s Voice. After reading the first chapter, I practiced the act that she had described. To my surprise, God took me into a vision where “someone” was lying on an operating room table while a surgeon placed stitches into the heart. When I looked at the “patient”, I realized that it was me. Instantly, God began to speak to me revealing that He needed to do some work within my heart to make me more suitable for the calling that He had placed on my life. He promised me that after He completed the major work that He would allow me to walk into my career field and enter an era of greater for my entire life. I believed God. I continued to pray regarding my future NP position, but I wasn’t anxious regarding stepping into that career path after that encounter. My primary focus became becoming who God created me to be. While I was focused on that, God was creating space for the position He desired for me to step into. Would you believe me if I told you that I was in the “right place at the right time”? If I had made my decision to accept the RNCM position based off of money, I would not have been here to support my son. I accepted that position not knowing that God had strategically placed me there for a time He knew was coming. Would you believe me if I told you that the NP position for the company became vacant and I transitioned right into the position without any formalities? I literally had a conversation with my future boss who told me there was about to be a vacancy, and if I wanted the position, all I needed to do was make it known!! I made it known right then and God blew my mind shortly thereafter. If God had not began to change my heart prior to me stepping into the NP position, I know that I wouldn’t have done well or been of any benefit to His kingdom. I was not ready spiritually for the tasks that came along with that position. Initially, I was only thinking of the promotion in a financial aspect when God was desiring for me to be an impact for His kingdom through that position. Some of us have to come to grips with the fact that YOU ARE NOT READY YET, but when God sees it fit, He will allow you to advance.

I’m in a place in my relationship with God where I am completely reliant on His words, instructions, and guidance. If He doesn’t tell me to move, I’m staying still and trusting Him. I made a decision that no matter what test or trial comes my way, I will stand with God just as He always stands with me. And I simply will not let go; not even after He blesses me! I am yet in another waiting season for God’s promises to continue to be manifested. Just imagine knowingly being in your waiting season, and God asks you, “How long are you willing to wait?” I will not lie; He liked to have sent me over the top when He asked me this question. Initially, I began to ponder some negative thoughts that raced in my mind. Next, I found myself feeling sad and hopeless. After realizing the devil was attempting to hijack my mind, I brought my thoughts captive and my emotions as well. I began to ponder the question and came up with the answer “However long You would have me to wait”. During the previously mentioned waiting season, I witnessed God’s intentionality regarding preparing me for my next season. God knows everything regarding the next era of my life. He knows how He’ll need for me to show up and what characteristics within me will be a hinderance. He knows that I’ll need more patience, more compassion, more endurance, more community, more accountability, more of HIM! I know that those things can be birthed during the waiting season. I will not miss God’s purpose for my waiting season attempting to focus on the doors that I KNOW He is going to open for me! Instead, I’ll continue to become who He needs me to be in preparation for His promises!

Are you in a waiting season and getting weary? Are you focused on the situation or circumstances more than on God? Are you anxious regarding the length of the waiting season? Are you becoming who God created you to be while you wait? Are you learning in your waiting season? I encourage you to take your focus off of the timing, circumstances, and the next door. I encourage you to set your focus on God and what He is trying to birth within you and through you during this waiting season.

Read, dissect, and meditate on Isaiah 55:11, Numbers 23:19, Genesis 32:26, Galatians 6:9, Isaiah 40:31, Psalm 27:14, Psalm 40:1, and Psalm 130:5.