As I searched YouTube to find a sermon, podcast, or worship playlist to occupy my mind during my work commute, I came across a song titled, “Make Me Whole” by Audience of One, Angel Osei, Simi Olapade, and Abi Oladesu. I began to listen to the song’s lyrics which began with, “You can have my heart. Break it all apart. Search me ‘til You find everything not of You. Come and make me whole.” Those words pierced my soul as they expressed one of my deepest desires; the desire to possess a clean, pure, whole heart. As the song continued, the lyrics rang out, “I trust you with my heart. No you won’t hurt me, Lord.” I could no longer hold back my tears, and to my surprise, I let out a gut-wrenching cry. After finally containing myself, I began to process my thoughts and feelings surrounding those lyrics. Let’s Talk!
I began to reflect! I felt as if I did not trust God with my heart, and it was not due to Him breaking or mishandling it. It was due to experiencing a thought that compared the people from my past to Him. In my “before Christ” days, I experienced my share of heartbreaks and heartaches resulting from staying in relationships which involved physical abuse, verbal abuse, toxic behaviors, lying, and cheating. Each time an insult of this sort occurred, I would attempt to “work at” forgiving the person and “mending” the brokenness within my heart. I was ineffective in doing so and would eventually exit the relationship. After thinking on that, I began to question myself… How could I give my heart to those people repetitively even after they had mishandled it? How could I question the One who had never mishandled it? How could I not trust Him to have it? How could I not give God my heart knowing that He will never hurt me? Knowing that when He does “break it”, He will repair it into a better condition? Knowing that the bad that resides within it will die and His good will live again? Knowing that He knows my heart better than I will ever know it? How could I second guess trusting God with my heart when I had foolishly trusted people with it? How could I? I closed that moment of reflection with a prayer and a made up mind to trust God with my heart.
Friend, over the last two days, I have replayed that almost 20 minute song nonstop. And now when that part comes on, I sing it loudly and truthfully. So, I challenge you to identify any reasons why you are being hesitant to trust God with your heart. If a reason is heartbreak/heartache from the past or the present, allow those feelings to compel you into God’s presence so that you may experience His healing power for God is near to the broken hearted (Psalm 34:18). I challenge you to face the pain of your past and/or present so that you may move forward in the newness of your future. I challenge you to trust God with your heart. I challenge you to allow Holy Spirit to clean and purify your heart. The scriptural references for this posting include: Proverbs 4:23, Psalm 51:10-12, Romans 2:29, Psalm 24:3&4, and Psalm 139: 23&24. Ttyl!
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